The Definition of Crazy -

Is to do the same thing over and over and expect a different result.  What i tend to forget is the 'same thing' feels different as the people are different, their stories are different, their promises different, the experiences they bring are different...yet i remain the same...co-dependent, Bi-Polar, Borderline...whatever the label...

Crazy to me could be nothing more than getting obsessed with a thought where crazy to another could be losing a favorite earring...right now i am crazy and getting crazier by the day...therapists with walls of degrees will say i am drawing the same person to me over and over to learn my lesson.  As a fighter...if Satan himself were in front of me i would go mano a mano with him before backing down...there is something in me that needs to hear what needs to be said...silence is a killer for me...walk away without why and i will go crazy...

So, i do indeed do the same thing over and over and expect a different result...yet each person brings a new story in which i have no reason not to believe until i see...indeed those degrees are right...i am the same person and so are each of them...this is where i have to change...accept the "because of....", or "that's what ??? do"....i have been very sick of that....why is it i have to change...where does their change come in?  But, they as i have been are all the same...

Time someone take the reigns of this thing and see if it can actually change...if crazy can be left behind...if it can be replaced with acceptance and "see you"....good luck with that...been there done that...your turn now...