When you tell the truth...

so you tell someone that you have an addiction to alcohol.  They say they want to help...but they don't really know what they are getting into...the ups the downs....the mood swings...the 17 days then slip...how much their words mean...that we see and pick up on the smallest inflections...that not letting go of the ex as the therapist advised does actually allow you to ask why....and not be attacked for asking...but we are sick...we are usually co-dependent as well as numbing ourselves...promises made and taken away are like cutting us off at the knees..."didn't think you could do it"....then why offer?  Offers give hope.  Make us feel believed in again...make us want to be better...then poof gone and we see we are nothing more than skin and bone to be lied to.  Why can't i do that to anyone?